MY MOM'S BEING A JERK :[ HELP?

so i stayed home from propagandize the alternative day since i was sleepy and i didn't get any nap the night prior to since my leg was and still is unequivocally hurting, i hold i pinched a haughtiness and deff did something to my knee too, anyways and i usually unequivocally longed for to go behind to sleep. So i'm arrange of well known for staying home from school, i've longed for fourteen days now, and yeah i gotta keep going i know i know (so dont go there lol) but my mom was unequivocally indignant since i didn't go. So she starts to diatribe as she regularly does, and fundamentally usually pulls out the runner from underneath me, as usual, and brings up my total past and is similar to so this is since your not going to school, and your ruining your life, and you do not see the destiny and you do not know whats most appropriate for you and blahh fucking blah blah i've listened this 10 times prior to no deceit whatsoever. So i proceed removing unequivocally pissed and proceed to scream which i longed for one day of school, since i was sleepy not since i smoked as well most pot or i was out being a small sex slave, (my mom is nuts she thinks i do these funny things since i won't content her where i am, she usually doesn't get which i hatred her courage and i do not wish her to know where i am EVER and if anything ever happened to me i'd rsther than die than see her try to save me, she couldn't any way she usually is the invalid irritating shrill one who goes in to be scared mode.) fine so behind on topic, whilst fighting she's revelation me how i'm miserable and such a meant chairman and which no one is ever going to similar to me and you need to take caring of your issues but dudee and afterwards she looks similar to she's going to take it there, and yup she takes it there. She's similar to danielle, danielle have been you gay? fine so right divided i'm distracted with ire since she already knows but she did one of those "yeah i know but i never listened it from your lips so let me have you feel worried and ask anyway" and she thinks i got raped or something since of my foolish superintendence advisor revelation her which something contingency have happened a year or dual ago since my grades plummeted from loyal A's to similar to A's B's C's and D's. (maybe i usually satisfied which newly a lot of things usually aren't value it) but whatever she is similar to a doctrinaire follower of Jesus eremite funny right so i can't loyal up be similar to yes i am happy since she would substantially flog me out, i'd have nowhere to go so stranded in between a stone and a hardplace i was similar to idk, infrequently yes infrequently no, which is arrange of loyal since once i whilst i get an captivate to guys. so she done this face and pronounced you have to work out your issues your so miserable. NOOO! im not usually you have me miserable. ughh. but i can't hold she went there! i usually longed for to be similar to have been you going to be f*cking me anytime soon? would you similar to to date me? yeah. thats right the all personal and zero of your concern. so f**k off. since did you even ask.

but errgg. so which happened yesterday, right divided this sunrise she's still being a bit*h. i do not even recollect what happened only but i'm still so pissed but it finished with yeah, you should be with "your" people and i usually walked divided since if i hadn't her head would have been exploded alll over the counter. similar to similar to WHAT THE F*cK!! it's not a residence you nutjob!

i have a feeling this is going to blow in my face soon. idk what to do. should i try to find somewhere else to go? similar to i know she'd flog me out she has in jeopardy to flog me out about thirty times for assorted foolish reasons, but i do not think my father would let her, depending on who got to him initial similar to my mom convinces him to do things with guilt. similar to idk how to do which :[ anyways should i demeanour for somewhere to go? or should i usually stay put and understanding with it. any ideas how to understanding with it? awhh male i usually wish to cry now, i do not have issues, she's revelation me i have issues, it's fine to be gay, unequivocally it is, right? she's my issue. :[
i spin eighteen in june so they can have it occur if they wish to so i'm bugging out.
ooo not as well most help. i'm greedy for wanting my mom to accept me and hit me down for being happy everytime i see her? and i'm greedy since i'm shocked i'll be on my own when i know i can't await myself yet? if thats what you mean, yeah i unequivocally do do not get it.
ps: i might have led people in the wrong citation in my rant. sorry. i do not wish to leave, i usually fright i'm going to be kicked out, and which i should be ready since it seems similar to a genuine possibility.
hey Shaun, the no even similar to im being happy in her house, i usually am. i do not move girls home, i've never even had a girlfriend. and i'm not out nonetheless so it's not similar to i'm discrasing the family or anything i usually feel what i feel and am removing whomped on for it. i do not move it up i usually keep it to myself, the usually which if anything else goes wrong, in this e.g. i longed for school, she connects it to being happy usually so she can move it up when theyre to unlrelated topics.
oh and i do not wish to piss her off, i usually wish zero to do with her, she wants to shift me and have me straight, she thinks it can unequivocally occur to. i attempted to surprise her the not possible, but she insists. someone discuss it me which you wouldn't wish anything to do with someone else perplexing to shift you and have you something your not.
wait what mess? my grades forsaken a small big whoop. i usually wish her to stop being meant and melancholy me since im happy and she thinks the wrong.